MY CRY FOR MERCY
i cant take it anymore
i gonna fuckin kill you,
guilt trips to ease my fears,
cant seem to make u hear.
talk about my problems,
wish i could end them all
it not what i wanted to do
its what i wanted you to do
help me pick the pieces of my life,
but do you really have to strike,
and make me fall to the ground
when we needed to get out,
get on, get up, and get away?
how could you leave me? please stay!

I Love To Be Your Slave
you like to hide from light
but you like me in your sight,
you like to hold me tight,
you like to think its right,
you like to fuck and fight,
and i know youd take delight
if you tie me, right?
and make me scream all night?
and i just think i might
let you tie me up, tight.

I need this stuff

You doubt your ability to please me? True its not that often that you get me to orgasm, but otherwise you're pretty focused on me and pleasing me, and you don't ask me for anything in return. And although I wouldn't mind pleasing you actively, I still really ( really) love what you do to me. Sometimes you don't do exactly what I want you to do, but I love how when you rub my nipples, I get that dizzy, lethargic, breathless feeling of pleasure, and when you wiggle your fingers inside me, I get that wild coursing thrill down to the deepest part of me. It makes me paralyzed from the feeling of your fingers moving in me. I would love for you bite me more, but I have to say, when I feel your hot, wet tongue sliding on me, anywhere you use it, it shocks me and makes me want to just say 'oooooooohh' very loud cos it feels sooo wonderful. Like in the bookstore, near the cds, when I lifted up in your lap and you bent over to try and lick the small of my back, I felt it all the way to my bones, but the camera was there and if you had continued teasing me like that we would have been kicked out. You think I left you or ignored you.... I'm trying to explain to you how you're such a great lover. I remember that one time we were at your house and you christened your new bed by fucking me on it. When we took the shower afterwards, you kept on touching me, and feeling me, and because we were wet, we were both slick from the water, and the double sensation of the warm water, and your even warmer skin on my body, was fantastic, I should get you wet more often. I love having the luxury of feeling your skin on mine. I also like feeling you slide in and out of me, its like, so intense, and the way you look when you're fucking me, i find it so sexy, but its hard to really concentrate when you're doing such a magnificent job of making me moan. Do you ever get tired from fucking me? You never seem like you are... and besides, do I seem like the kind of person to say something like this to you, and not mean it or lie to you about it? Don't worry, I'm sure I'll tell you again some time this week, after we make love, or should I say, 'you make love to me'. I can never tell if you're pleased unless I feel your cum dripping down my thighs. Mmmm, I love the way you taste. I love you so much, I don't think I'll ever get enough of you, sex or affection.

my kind of love letters...

'pussy means i want to fuck u and suck u hard , tie u up like a fucking animal when i see u in school every god damn morning, everyday living, i want to tie u up and fuck u hard torture u like i want to kill u '

'ok what bab, i want to suck ur clit hard, tie u up on a fucking bed where u can't fight back besides strugeling, hm hm , tickle u to death, fuck u, make u suck it, hit u with stuff, stick stuff in u , make u drink it,'

'suffer would be fine, but that's for u not for me, hon, hm hm hm when can u come over my house, after school, never? because i can use stuff here to tie u up and lay u down so i can torture u'

'u'd love to see and tie u up, oo don't worry my love i will tie u up even if i have to punish u a little i will i can't wait to see u tied up hm'


'i've thinking about it since that day u told me "promise me that you would not leave me even though i fucked an other guy" do u know how painful that is, knowing that ur g/f fucked an other guy or going to, maybe that's thekind of relation u want, be with me, fuck me, love me, fuck others, and on and on, i don't know, is that it? but me, that's not it at all, no fucking way, i just want u, i don't want to fuck other girls, i want a good clean, and loyal relationship, love, support, passion, romance, no matter what, but fucing others, and not loyal is against my will, rather die than having that type or relation, unless it's an orgy lol or kinda hmm that we'll have to see together lol
I JUST WANT TO BE WITH U AND LOVE U, I WANT TO BE ABLE TO TRUST U, U'VE LOSTMY TRUST COUPLE DAYS AGO, WORDS WONT BRING IT BACK, OR WHAT U'LL DO TO ME,BUT SOMETHING WILL, DON'T KNOW YET, BUT I KNOW SOMETHING WILL,THIS IS IN GENERAL OK> if love is that important, means that much, or whatever, i think the person is able to sacrifice anyone, able to do anything to keep that relation close together and not let it fall apart pieces by pieces, trust, of course u can't get trust just like that, u have to show prove that u can trust the person, i don't know that's what i think, i'm ready to sacrifice my family for the person i love, only if i love her like crazy and also that i know she loves me crazy, that she loves me back the way i love her, will it be u?, can't tell yet, but I'M WILLING TO GO FAR AND SEE MYSELF IF IT'S U'

'ok i have to go for now i'll either see u later or tomorrow, ok bab sleep tight u and stick those hands into ur pussy, hm hm hm , or i'll do it myself, hmm love u'

'do you know how crazy i am about you, if one day i live to see us live together, i'll take so much pics of u, torture u day after day, record you, tie u up, fuck u, love u, kiss u everything, u'll be my little toy, waw u just woke up, awsome, how are you bab?'

'did u enjoy what we did today, gosh, feeling ur skin grrrrrrrr makes me feel like i want to tear it up, hmm u're so fucking lucky hmmmm, we had a little violence mmm, pain ooo yea, you drive me nuts, ur hole body drive me nuts, if one day we work in the same office, holyshit, we're going to end up fucking everywhere, it'd be crazy, but that's never going to happen, working with u in the same office or project. That'd be awsome though lol. it was so cold out there, ur ass was freezing like hell, but then when I went in with my fingers, hmmmm fucking shit, it was hot and wet ooo ya, hm hm remember, when bondage is involved, u'll be the one suffering with pleasure hm hm, what do you think of a bondage contest lol, u and me, against the other, it'd be fucking awsome but we'd probably lose, maybe, hmmmm, i'm not sure about that I LOVE U, u little dirty bitch, u seem so nice but then u attack like a viper hmmmm i love it, it gets intense my favorite part hmmm'

freak out!

You are a Huge Freak!
You love sex! You might be a virgin, but you might not be! You think about sex all the time and always imagine having sex...(even if you don't act on it) You like kinky freaky stuff and love experimenting with new things! rarrr get em tiger!

Rough Sex (learn your math)

Subject: Rough Sex....Funny Shit Hehe!!!
Body: ruff sexin'
Body: ROUGH SEX!!! DON'T READ THIS IF YOU'RE GONNA GET OFFENDED:

A hug leads to a kiss a kiss leads 2 a finger a finger leads to a hand a hand leads to a lick a lick leads to a suck a suck leads 2 a fuck. So tell me how many people are you gonna hug after you heard this cuz sex is like math u add the bed subtract the clothes divide the legs leave your solution and pray you dont multiply! Send this right after u read it, something good will happen at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock in your life!! Whoever breaks this chain will be cursed w/ relationship problems 4-10 years. If you send this in 15 minutes youre safe. Something good will happen tonight at 11:11pm. This is not a joke someone will either call you or
will talk to you online.

Giving head massages the jaw while burning 32 calories.
Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth

Having nice sex burns 358 calories.
Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories.
Take off her clothes with her consent.........................12 cal
without......................187 cal

Take off her Bra With two hands..........................8 cal
With one hand.........................12 cal
With mouth.............................85 cal

Put on Protection hard ........................... 6 cal
soft..........................315 cal

Foreplay Looking for target...................8 cal
Finding G spot ......................92 cal
I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal

Entry Holding her..................12 cal
On the floor.................8 cal

With Different Position Missionary..........................358 cal
Doggy...........................316 cal
69 lying...............................286 cal
69 standing.............................512cal
Italian hanger.........................912 cal

Orgasm Real................................112 cal
Faking................................315 cal

After "O" Lying in Bed............................18 cal
hop off the bed............................36 cal
Wondering why she left pissed off...........816 cal

Get dressed Quiet and calm...........................32 cal
Rushing.........................98 cal
Heard her boyfriend opening the door.............1218 cal
Heard her dad/2 yr old baby sista at the door.............1942 cal

IF YOU BREAK THIS YOU WILL HAVE THE WORST DAY OF YOUR LIFE
TOMORROW AND AWFUL SEX FOR A YEAR! REPOST THIS AND YOU WILL FIND AMAZING SEX WITHIN ONE MONTH ;)
REPOST THIS WITH THE TITLE: Rough Sex

"Another cutter, Another freak,
Another dork, Another geek,
Another prep, Another jock,
Another whore, and more punk rock,
Another hater, Another "G",
Another scar they put on me.
Another label that happens to fall,
when no one knows the person at all."-anonymous

Wonder What?

Sometimes you make me sad, frustrated, angry, solemn, but when I finally get next to you, or you touch me, its like I want you so bad, it doesn't matter that you hurt me, or that I hurt you, I just want to love you, and have you love me back. You know what you do to me. And I know that you're damn proud of yourself that you can make me weak in the knees just by breathing on my ear, or rubbing me. Yes, I am happy with you, at moments of course, I do get angry. But I think about you almost all the time, and you never placed a comment on the poem I put on my blog. I was dashed.

'everytime I breath I think of you'

Its true. I can remember (faintly) how you taste, how you feel, how you smell, the sound of your voice, and when I finally do get close to you to experience it, I get scared and panic because I think 'It cant feel this good' and I know if I don't stop, I never will. I want to get lost in you every fucking day. There are times when I get so anxious, I feel like I'm gonna go insane from missing you, and then I have to try and think about something else, and then I think about the universe and I black out anyway.

I love the way you kiss me, sometimes its soft, and gentle. Sometimes you tease me, but then again, I tease you all the time so I deserve it. And the intense, wild kissing is my favorite; my mouth gets dry, my heart beats fast, and I'm short of breath. Those never fail to let me know you want me, and very badly, too.

i suck at tests.

You are the Gothic Leader; you tend to lead the pack and always allow giving out help to others. Although you seem to be a strong will you heart is easily swayed by that of the weak. You are a supernatural mother figure and you should stay that way, cause in a world of pain and suffering everyone needs one.

This is what you want.

You wrote it and its what you want. I'm quite surprised that you didn't try to talk to me 3rd period, that's okay, I guess that you've just accepted my proposal last night. I miss you already. but wont bring it up. if you want to talk to me you will. im sorry i hurt you.

Steal this album!

For Christmas I want new clothes, the korn CD, a pair of sexy boots, red lingerie and a long day of wild, crazy, frantic, blow-your-mind-from-pleasure, love making. Is that too much to ask for?
I only wish I had my own house.

There's no point to my life without you.

It lies to me,
The world I live in.
It tells me 'follow the rules,
Don't fight, give in'
I want to cave and bend and make my mind hollow
Without thought, and without want
But I have needs and dreams,
I have thoughts that cannot stop,
Cannot stop being, cannot stop existing!
So I smile and nod and pretend I'm not thinking
Pretend to give a damn about little things with no meaning,
I have no worth, almost no value to my life but for you,
I breath everytime I think of you when I'm asleep at night
I never want to let you go or have you leave me be
Everything is wrong in the world, only you are right.

tehehe

"You taste like fajitas. You are exotic and spicy. Only the bold can handle you, you little firecracker. You are delicious and your sizzling goodness can be heard and smelled all over the place."

Why am I not allowed to care?

'ooo yea it was wounderful, i'm ok with no taylor, as u wish darling, lol but remember those hands of urs, i'll have to tigh'em up hm hm love u '

Do you really mean it when you say 'love u'?!?
How do I know that you mean that? Ask you? You could be lying to me. How is it that someone incapable of emotions cares about me? Is that possible? The only way I know you care about me is that you still seek me out at school and hang with me.
Do you want me to stop caring, Adrien? That means that I am not allowed to love you, Adrien. I cant just stop loving you, Adrien. Im not apathetic to every one around me like you are, Adrien.
I want you in every imaginable way, Adrien. I still want you, right now, Adrien.
Just having you touch me turns me on. Im a slave for you. I'll do anything for you, Not almost anything, I will do whatever you want, whatever you need, whatever you have to have, anything.
Fuck you, and your 'almost anything'. Why can't you just comply?
...
...
...
Shades of blue, Adrien, you're turning me shades of blue. I greatly dislike being sad. I can't not talk to you, 'cause I love you. Thats why when I said I wasn't going to talk to you, I still did. I can't stay angry for long. Its a wasted emotion.

I'm sorry if I made you angry.
I'll try to be a more heartless person.

i hope he dies.

I feel so wonderful being able to look at some one and think 'If they died I would be unaffected by their death'



apathy rocks.

i figure if you have a few close people you really care for deeply then you have less of a chance for them to be lost to you.


im smart.

Yesterday Was Amazing.

Seriously.
Next time no Taylor.
Just you, me, and a blanket. I was so warm. It felt so good.



Lets do it again soon.




You should hang out with jake this weekend. (just a suggestion.)

I got a single silver bullet
Shot right through my heart
To prove I can survive,
without you,
i'll breath you in
i won't let you down
i wont hold you back...
I know what scared you the most
beeing alone just like them...
at least you'll have my heart
you know you shine so bright
I love you untill the day I die

i dont know where u got it from or if u made it up, but i love it, i love you, ur so fucking sweet (i totally deserve u) i only wish i was with you now. u have to keep your word remember that u still owe me "anything" you cant take it back u already said it, i want to touch you and taste you and smell you on my skin, i cant wait until i can finally wake up one morning to see you sleeping next to me knowing that youre mine and im yours, and ill have you forever and ever, until i die, or u die but i sincerely hope that doesnt happen until we're old. just knowing that ur near me gives me a sence of security unsurpassed by any feeling ive ever known before you.
im so happy with you.
dont leave me, and i wont ever betray you, my baby.
i promise.

WHY CONDOMS COME IN BOXES OF 3, 6, AND 12

A man walks into a drug store with his 8-year old son. They happen to walk by the condom display, and the boy asks,"What are these, Dad? To which the man matter-of-factly replies, "Those are called condoms, son. Men use them to have safe sex.""Oh I see," replied the boy pensively. Yes, I've heard of that in health class at school."He looks over the display and picks up a package of 3 and asks, "Why are there 3 in this package? " The dad replies,"Those are for high school boys, ONE for Friday, ONE for Saturday, and ONE for Sunday." "Cool" says the boy.He notices a 6 pack and asks, "Then who are these for?" "Those are for college men," the dad answers, TWO for Friday, TWO for Saturday, and TWO for Sunday." "WOW!" exclaimed the boy, "then who uses THESE?" he asks, picking up a 12 pack!With a sigh and a tear in his eye, the dad replied, "Those are for the married men. ONE for January, ONE for February, ONE for March....etc." Repost this titled "WHY CONDOMS COME IN BOXES OF 3, 6, AND 12" within the next 5 minutes and something great will happen to you at 11:43 otherwise you will have bad sexual relationships for the next 2 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We are all on drugs (literally)

I tried to find that web site for codes to put music videos on the webpage but I cant remember the fucking url for the ‘codezone’. I want a mindless self indulgence vid on my page so’s I can access it whenever I want to. I’m pissed about Brian Holmes leaving for Pennsylvania or Philly or wherever his brother is taking him. Now I have to buddy up with this chick in my gym class and she’s incompetent sometimes and I cant talk about shit with her because her friends are always around us. (love) I don’t want to just sit around and wait for shit to happen to me when others cant decide what to do. (dance, dance) I have to go to Norfolk, Va this weekend because my dad’s bro got leave from the army for 4 months. I hate him. His brother was trigger happy last time he came home and I don’t want another confrontation with ‘the soldier boy’. Hes always like “I was in the war, I killed people, I’m traumatized” and I’m like “you’re still breathing (asshole)”.
I was abandoned by the red-head, I’m traumatized. (I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me). I cant wait till Christmas. Maybe everyone will be more relaxed then ‘cause my family is whacked out lately and I already got kicked out once and I don’t want to get kicked out again, (damnit!!!)

What am I doing?

Weezer - We Are All On Drugs
When your out with your friends
In your new Mercedes-Benz and you're
On drugs

And you show up late for school 'cause
You think your really cool when you're
On drugs

And you put on your headphones
And you step into the zone when you're
On drugs

But the world don't care
If you are or are not there 'cause you're
On drugs

Give it to me
We are all on drugs, yeah
Never getting enough, (Never get enough)
We are all on drugs, yeah
Give me some of that stuff

And you twitch in your seat
'Cause you wanna hit the street when you're
On drugs

And you cause such a fuss 'cause
There's no one you can trust when you're
On drugs

And the best of your days
Will all vanish in the haze when you're
On drugs
And you wish you could quit
'cause you're really sick of it but you're
On drugs

Give it to me
We are all on drugs, yeah
Never getting enough, (Never get enough)

I want to confiscate YOUR drugs
I don't think that I can get enough

Give it to me
We are all on drugs, yeah
Never getting enough
We are all on drugs, yeah
Give me some of that stuff
We are all on drugs (we are all on drugs)
[x4] (Wooooh)

Yay Internet (im gonna kill you, Eventually!!!!) *laughs maniacally*

Fall Out Boy- Dance, Dance

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse

Barely stuttered out

"A joke of a romantic" or stuck to my tongue

Weighed down with words too over-dramatic

Tonight it's "it can't get much worse" Vs. "no one should ever feel like.."

I'm two quarters and a heart down

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so I'll write them

So you need them just to get by

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance, this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

You always fold just before you're found out

Drink up its last call Last resort

But only the first mistake and I...

I'm two quarters and a heart down

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so I'll write them

So you need them just to get by

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine

You've been saving for his mattress, love

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance, this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine

You've been saving for his mattress (mattress, mattress)

I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)

Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)

Dance this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

i didnt tell you that yesterday i did try to kill myself, but the cars kept stopping. After the fourth time i just gave up. im sorry. i know im chickenshit.

I keep having these suckass moments when I inevitably realize once again how meaning less my life would be if I had no one to love and love me in return. And thinking about how wonderful you are makes me feel like, maybe I shoudn't kill myself just yet. Maybe when its over, if its over, when the dreams of your love are memories and i can learn to live without you, i can look back and say, "wow, that was awesome". I know youre going to read this eventually, so what better way to tell you than in cyberspace, where itll be forever, i love you.

yellow raft in a blue river?

i wish i was exotic.

More fucking music (im definitely not happy today)

"Right Here" - Staind
I know I've been mistaken But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I've made a commitment I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way

But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting

"Lights and Sounds" - Yellowcard
Hello you, how was the rest?
You made it through
But never the less i got you, out on a wire
you be love and I’ll be a liar
tell it all and fill up the air
make it loud ‘cause nobody’s there (Nobody’s there)
stop, turn, take a look around
At all the lights and sounds
Let ‘em bring you in slow, burn, let it all fade out
And pull the curtain down
Wonder where you been
Make it new but stay in the lines
Just let go, keep it inside
Smile big, for everyone
Even when you know what they’ve done
They gave you the end but not where to start
Not how to build, how to tear it apart
Tell it all and fill up the air
Make it loud ‘cause nobody’s there (Nobody’s there)
stop, turn, take a look around
At all the lights and sounds
Let ‘em bring you in slow, burn, let it all fade out
And pull the curtain down
Wonder where you been
I’ve got a way to work this out
I’ve got a way and you know how
I’ve got a way, stop, turn, take a look around
At all the lights and sounds
Let ‘em bring you in slow, burn, let it all fade out
And pull the curtain down
Wonder where you been
You earned everything you found
And painted faces frown
I say 'I knew you in'

oh great, more music!

Faithless- Mass Destruction

My dad came into my room holding his hat
I knew he was leaving, He sat on my bed told me some facts.
Son, I have the duty, calling on me
You and your sister be brave my little soldier
And don't forget all I told ya
Your the mister of the house now remember this
And when you wake up in the morning give ya momma a kiss
Then I had to say goodbye
In the morning woke momma with a kiss on each eyelid,
Even though I'm only a kid
Certain things can't be hid
Momma grabbed me
Held me like I was made of gold
But left her inner stories untold
I said, momma it will be alright
When daddy comes home, tonight

[CHORUS]
Whether long range weapon or suicide bomber
Wicked mind is a weapon of mass destruction
Whether you're Soaraway Sun or BBC 1
Misinformation is a weapon of mass destruct
You coulda Caucasian or a poor Asian
Racism is a weapon of mass destruction
Whether inflation or globalization
Fear is a weapon of mass destruction
Whether Halliburton, Enron or anyone
Greed is a weapon of mass destruction
We need to find courage, overcome
Inaction is a weapon of mass destruction

The skin under my chin is explodin' again
I'm getting stress from some other children, I'm holdin' it in
We takin' sides like a politician an if I get friction
We get to fightin', I defend my Dad He's the best of all men
An whatever he's doin, he's doin' the right thing
It's frightening, but it makes me mad
Why do all of these people seem to hate my dad
An if that ain't enough, now I got these spots
I go to sleep every night with my stomach in knots,
And what's more I can hear mama next door
Explore the radio for reports of war
An all we ever seem to do is hide the tears
Seems like daddy been gone for years
But he was right, now I'm geared up for the fight
An he would be proud of me
If my Daddy came home tonight.

[CHORUS]

My story stops here, lets be clear.
This scenario is happening everywhere.
And you ain't going to nirvana or far-vana,
you're coming right back here to live out your karma.
With even more drama than previously, seriously.
Just how many centuries have we been waiting for someone else to make us free?
And we refuse to seethat people overseas suffer just like we:
Bad leadership and ego's unfettered and free
Who feed on the people they're supposed to lead
I don't need good people to pray and wait
For the lord to make it all straight.
There's only now, do it right.
'Cos I don't want your daddy, leaving home tonight

[CHORUS]

Cookie Enabler?

I like cookies.
If i can eat them.
computers suck.

My New Favorite Song

1 - Black Eyed Peas - My Humps

What you gon’ do with all that junk? All that junk inside your trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk, Get you love drunk off my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely little lumps. (Check it out)
I drive these brothers crazy, I do it on the daily,
They treat me really nicely, They buy me all these ice-ys.
Dolce & Gabbana, Fendi and then Donna
Karan, they be sharin’
All their money got me wearin' fly
But I ain’t askin, They say they love my ass ‘n,
Seven Jeans, True Religion's,
I say no, but they keep givin’
So I keep on takin’
And no I ain’t taken
We can keep on datin’
I keep on demonstrating.
My love, my love, my love, my love
You love my lady lumps,
My hump, my hump, my hump, My humps they got u,
She’s got me spending.(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.
She’s got me spendin’.(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me
What you gon’ do with all that junk? All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk, Get you love drunk off my hump.
What u gon’ do with all that ass? All that ass inside them jeans?
I’m a make, make, make, make you scream Make u scream, make you scream.
Cos of my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump. My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely lady lumps. (Check it out)
I met a girl down at the disco.
She said hey, hey, hey yea let’s go.
I could be your baby, you can be my honey
Lets spend time not money.
I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff, Milky, milky cocoa, Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiight.
They say I’m really sexy,
The boys they wanna sex me.
They always standing next to me,
Always dancing next to me,
Tryin’ a feel my hump, hump. Lookin’ at my lump, lump.
U can look but you can’t touch it, If you touch it
I'ma start some drama, You don’t want no drama,
No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama
So don’t pull on my hand boy,
You ain’t my man, boy,
I’m just tryn’a dance boy,
And move my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.
My lovely lady lumps [x3]
In the back and in the front.
My lovin’ got u,
She’s got me spendin’.(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.
She’s got me spendin’.(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.
What you gon’ do with all that junk? All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
What you gon’ do with all that ass? All that ass inside them jeans?
I’ma make, make, make, make you scream
Make you scream, make you scream.
What you gon do with all that junk? All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,
Get you love drunk off this hump.
What you gon’ do wit all that breast? All that breast inside that shirt?
I’ma make, make, make, make you work
Make you work, work, make you work.
She’s got me spendin’. Spendin all your money on me and spendin’ time on me
She’s got me spendin’.Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

I am such a fuck up............

Guess what I did.
Come on guess....
Nope its not an ipod, I didn't get a car, and I definitely did not win the lottery.



Give up?
I knew you would. I broke my computer. Guess how.

I SPILLED MILK ON IT!


im so proud of myself. im gonna so totally go trick or treating. im wearing my costume right now. Of course im at school, but you the get point. (the point is my costume rocks)
I've been thinking about my future. I have to sign up for colleges and I don't know how I can get scholarships. I don't want to grow up. I love being this old. I want to stay seventeen forever. I hate being depressed; I want to smoke some weed, just so I cant think for at least a few hours.

I need money.

My mommy gave me money for lunch today and i already packed food.
i still want a goat..... but i wont get one yet.
i think im gonna have to call it quits with my biotechnology class. i cant take the workload. im not even awake in the morning, so how do they expect me to do any work? and the bus, my bus is either too late, or too early, or comes on a day when we wont even be doing anything. im so exasperated im on the edge of smacking someone with my text book. tell me what am i supposed to do. i dont especially like the class and i'd much rather be cracking equations in statistics class (which i wanted to do in the first place) and doing much better than i am in that class. i have a C and i hate doing badly. i may act nonchalant, but i have repressed emotion issues so thats what happens. Inside me theres a battle waging that, trust me, you dont want to be involved in. I love Adrien!

Maybe

i want to be oblivious to everything, naive to people and what they do, to themselves and to others. Interaction. Its a daily ritual. In public we weave in and out, around each other in an intricate dance of avoidance so we dont actually touch them. On our way to what ever it is that we do to occupy us and give our lives temporary meaning. Why must I be so callously aware and critical of others? I slept over at my friend Taylors house last night. Her stepmom made corn chowder for soup. tell me how does reading this impact your life? The momentary capture of your interest and attention is too brief to have meaning for you, So why am I even writing this?

I cant believe I let u read my blog. Why. Now I feel weird. I saw Danny Bonaduce down a whole bottle of cranberry juice and vodka. I hope u never become an alcoholic. I haven't smoked weed in so long because I have u and I don't want to screw it up. im in denial, and im afraid to admit it. I have to go to college. There is a possibility that I will have to move to another state. I don't like to think about it. Thinking it about it now makes me want to feel your arms around me, if just for reassurance. I think our relationship is all about the sex but its nice to have someone to listen to, and to listen to me. I wouldn't change anything about u because I think ur perfect for me. If I did change u, id make u maybe a little wilder and crazier, but I need the stability. I say it here on my blog because, I admit, im chickenshit about telling u or even bringing it up first. I love you. You make me feel so many things, not just happy but angry and sad and excited and alive. I would never feel the same again if you left me.

Once Upon A Time: The Useless Blob

One day i was searching the net and came upon a website called www.spacefem.com and decided to click on a link named 'useless blobs'. Lo and behold there were blobs of many a color, so i harkened and copied and pasted a spiral blob html code to my blog www.moreteenageangst.blogspot.com template. So now u may adopt your own useless blob; They come in lt. blue, blue, green, yellow, orange, red, purple, pink, grey, black, spiral, swirl, negative, allcolor, disco, clear, and even have canadian (think south park's 'ike' [bad baby]) and american themed blobs.

New website I found today 43 things

yet another complete waste of time reading what others want to do so instead of doing them they write lists online of things they could be out doing. http://www.43places.com/

sugar!

sugar sugar sugar sugar. if i only had an egg!

No school Tuesday!

So an Irishman walks out of a bar.....

do you ever feel like you're surrounded by incompetent idiots?

my mom has finally decided, "okay, im the parent, youre the kid, im in charge, shut up and deal with it" my favorite thing to do now is collect music so if any one knows how to email music please contact me, i have mostly metal, punk, rock and sAMPler CD's but i also have a few things of rap and hip hop. raedunbar@gmail.com is my address, so feel free to chat me up.

My boyfriend is strange, 'nuf said.

He tells me that I have bad things about myself. Okay so I know I may have a language problem and my thoughts aren't generally PG_13 but I cant help that I have friends, especially guy friends and I've tried to be more focused on him while they're around, and I send them away sometimes, what more does he want? I love the kid, and honestly, I have problems coping with that fact sometimes because for some reason my feelings for him are overwhelming. But when I confront him about how I can change myself to make him happier, he says 'I never want you to change'. To me that means he likes complaining about me. If he doesn't want me to touch him, then who else am I supposed to touch if when I touch someone else he gets jealous. I don't get jealous because I'm a laid back person, and I know he would never leave me anyways. I'm just a confident person and besides, I'm fun what else do guys want? I'm nice looking, I have a great body, I'm entertaining, enigmatic and comfortable to be around. I never dated any other guys before him, because I'm a perfectionist and I like doing things right the first time. You people have to realize that my life isn't the easiest. That's why I call this site 'moreteenageangst' because my life is filled with angst. Mostly because I like to get in trouble.

okay, what do i do now..........

IMPORTANT NOTE:
This will deal with the main genres of Metal. Some bands are influentiated by MORE THAN ONE genre, and this makes them appear in various categorizations. (Examples: Black Sabbath, Amon Amarth, etc)
This is NOT a definitive genre list, but will help you discover the Metal realm and have a knowledge of the basics.

Heavy Metal Wrote:

This genre started to arise in the mids of the 70's. With bands like Accept and Judas Priest. Then came the bands inspired by them, the England movement called NWOBHM exploded in 1980 (it really ranges from 1979 to 1983), as most of the bands date their first released LP. Heavy Metal has a marked focus on harmonies and riffing, on a two guitars basis; with clean vocals that can easily reach the high pitch range. Lyrics are too variated, and bands don't tend to gather in lyrical content groups, though they rather range from history, to metal as a way of life, to drugs. Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Iron Maiden, Black Sabbath, Judas Priest, Manilla Road, Accept -Bands worth noticing: Wizard, Tank, Hellion, Slayer's "Show No Mercy" -Sample: Click here to listen to a Heavy Metal sample -Sample Details: Dio - "Stand Up And Shout", from "Holy Diver" album.

Thrash Metal Wrote:

Thrash was founded around 1983 (Though demos date from 1981). This genre got a "big 4" which are the leading, most popular bands of the genre, though non of has made a thrash album for a long time. The big 4 consist on Megadeth, Slayer, Anthrax and Metallica. Overkill was too one of the founding fathers of Thrash Metal and the band that since 1985 (their first release) stayed truer to their roots. This genre is based on Hardcore Punk like Cro-Mags, and fast metal riffing, with pounding double bass and aggressive shouting (ex. Exodus) or grasping (ex. Kreator) vocals. The palm muting is also a cliched technique for thrash bands. The thrash metal scene in the U.S. of A. was divided into the East Coast and the West Coast. There were no real difference between the band sounds, but you've got more bands coming from the West (specialy San Francisco and Los Angeles) than from the East (New York). From L.A. and San Francisco came bands like Megadeth, Slayer, Metallica, Dark Angel, Death Angel, Forbidden, Testament and Exodus. The East Coast popularly only hosted Anthrax, Overkill and Nuclear Assault. Though now, as those scenes practicaly decayed in the late 80's, beginning of the 90's. Thrash took a hold of Europe, specialy in Germany, where extremely popular thrash bands like Sodom, Tankard, Kreator, Destruction and more arose to give thrash a bit of a kickback. Lyrics are normaly based on political views and societal complains. The term Speed Metal came before Thrash Metal. It started when Motorhead mixed the speed and rawness of Punk into their Heavy Metal sound. Later, the genre changed somewhat and a lot of bands used Hardcore Punk instead of standard Punk, but still mixed in with Heavy Metal. It's because of later Speed Metal bands that Speed and Thrash Metal got mixed up. Speed Metal however, has more melody and is closer in it's ties to Heavy Metal than Thrash is. (such as Grave Digger and Running Wild). Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Slayer, Metallica, Megadeth, Anthrax, Sodom, Kreator, Overkill -Bands worth noticing: Sabbat, Testament, Destruction, Metal Church, Dark Angel, Death Angel, Heathen -Sample: Click here to listen to a Thrash Metal sample -Sample Details: Sabbat - "Hossana In Excelsis", from "History Of A Time To Come" album

Speed Metal Wrote:

Speed metal was formally introduced by Motorhead, who combined heavy metal riffs with the speed and rawness of punk in their songs. Later speed metal bands would take their cues from hardcore punk instead of standard punk, changing the style somewhat. Confusion between speed and thrash often arises as a result of this hardcore influence, though the difference is evident in speed metal's tighter adherence to the heavy metal style as well as it's larger emphasis on melody. Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Motorhead -Bands worth noticing: Exciter, Iron Angel, Paradox, early Running Wild and Helloween's first album are all good examples of Speed Metal -Sample: Click here to listen to a Speed Metal sample -Sample Details: Exciter - "Heavy Metal Maniac", from "Heavy Metal Maniac" album

Power Metal Wrote:

Most popularly, Metal began in 1987 with Helloween's release of their first Keepers Of The Seven Keys. Actually Power Metal began a bit earlier, with the Denmark band Pretty Maids and their album Red, Hot and Heavy from 1984 (in which you can find the song Back To Back, which was covered by Hammerfall nearly a decade later). Power draws influence from Heavy Metal (mainly, Iron Maiden), though it has evolved over the years into a genre which utilizes fast melodic songs, more often than not, flown in their way with keyboard notes. Vocals are extremely melodic and mostly high pitched, the guitars are used clean and riffs are not often their fort, they concentrate their energy on soloing and melody, the use of double bass is a must, except on the ballads (which are popular amongst most of the Power Metal bands). Power Metal tends to be a very technical genre, and multi vocals choruses abound in the genre. Lyrical themes are that of fantasy, love, life, kings, history, sex or happy things. Bands which possess a too happy music and lyrics lacking powerful riffs and making up for it with keyboards are often determined as Flower Metal even if it's not an actual genre on it's own. As stated before, Power Metal arose in Denmark (hand to hand with Pretty Maids) but it got massive in Germany, with Helloween. Symphonical effects never got a big hype from bands in the genre, so it wasn't so prolific, but there is an Italian Power Metal band (Rhapsody), which uses them to the extent in which the music is practically led by it. Some bands also, as in all genres, blend in different Metal genres to create innovative sounds (ex. Death Vocals(early)/(now) thrashy tones + Power Metal = Children Of Bodom). Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Pretty Maids, Helloween, Blind Guardian, Gamma Ray -Bands worth noticing: Dark Moore, Dragonforce, Lost Horizon, Nocturnal Rites, Sex Machineguns (from Japan), Rhapsody -Sample: Click here to listen to a Power Metal sample -Sample Details: Heavenly - "Time Machine", from "Coming From The Sky" album

Progressive Metal Wrote:

Prog Metal is a mix of basic Metal sound (such as distorted guitars and double bass, plus some elements of Power Metal on some bands) with the progressive rock of the 70's such as Yes, King Crimson, Pink Floyd and Rush. The instruments are played on an extremely technical way and the music is always very produced to add the right amount of effects needed to result in what's desired. Progressive Metal (as it's also named) was founded in mid 80's by Queensryche and Fates Warning, though the genre style perfected during the 90's with help from Dream Theater. Though to an extent it was 1989's "Perfect Symmetry" from Fates Warning which helped develop what would become Prog metal as a whole, and then what we know as prog metal today. Dream Theater took what Fates Warning created back in that album and added layers and layers of intrinsic, complex guitar work, fast keyboards and opulent vocals. This constituted a very big step to Prog Metal. This genre, by it's pretentions of animosity and showy musicianship probably has as many fervent detractors as fans. Bands usualy tend to mix Power Metal with Prog to create a very interesting sound (Symphony X) Lyrics tend to dwell with life, love, human being, philosophy, stories and such. Note: Opeth are often mistaken for Death and/or Progressive Metal, even though they do not belong to either of these sub-genres, only utilize them in their sound at times Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Queensryche, Fates Warning, Dream Theater -Bands worth noticing: Shaaman, Spiral Architect, Power Of Omens, Pagan's Mind, Symphony X, Ayreon, Angra (everything but the last album), Vintersorg (Last two albums) -Sample: Click here to listen to a Prog Metal sample -Sample Details: Ayreon - "Day Fourteen: Pride", from "The Human Equation" album

Death Metal Wrote:

Death Metal was created by Possessed when in 1985 released their first LP "Seven Churches", this genre took Thrash further, downtuned their guitars and gruntled the vocals (dyaphragma style), the drum work was the fastest double bass to that period of time, and the downtuned guitars played a well coordinated cacophony of riffs. The lyrics were based against religion and such, but Death's album "Scream Bloody Gore" from 1987 determined what Death Metal was really (lyricaly) about. The US Florida scene bloomed in the late 80's leaded by Deicide, Morbid Angel, Death and Obituary, all released landmark albums as the previously mentioned, "Deicide" and "Legion" from Deicide in 1990 and 1992 and "Altars of Madness" by Morbid Angel in 1989. "Slowly We Rot", "Cause Of Death" and "The End Complete" (from 1989, 1990 and 1992) from Obituary were also very important albums in the creation and stablishment of Death Metal and the Florida scene (which perished in the mid-late 90's). Sweden took the Death Metal style to form what is now known as "Swedeath", "Gothenburg" or "Melodic Death Metal". Bands like Dismember ("Like An Everflowing Stream", and "Indecent and Obscene" albums) and Entombed were the pioneers of this genre, followed by the British colaboration of Carcass' "Heartwork" album. This innovation took Death Metal and added melodic solos (since most of them were, as previously noted, cacophonous. For an example see soloing in Morbid Angel), heavier and a bit slower sound. Note: Opeth are often mistaken for Death and/or Progressive Metal, even though they do not belong to either of these sub-genres, only utilize them in their sound at times The genre has "progressed" so much that most bands who are considered "melodic Death Metal" nowadays, do not utilize much Death Metal in their music and are much closer to Heavy Metal with harsh vocals. Lyrics more often than not talk about Death, Gore, Murdering, Zombies, blood, anti christianity, and some takes on Man and Philosophy by the hand of Death (the band). Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Possessed, Death, Obituary -Bands worth noticing: Entombed, Dismember -Sample 1: Click here to listen to a Melodic Death Metal sample -Sample Details: Dismember - "Of Fire", from "Death Metal" album. -Sample 2: Click here to listen to a Death Metal sample -Sample Details: Morbid Angel - "Maze Of Torment", from "Altars Of Madness" album

Black Metal Wrote:

Black Metal started in 1982, as the Speed/Heavy Band Venom released their "Black Metal" album, a roughly produced, Motorhead influenced full of speed metal album which took simplistic lyrics of Death, Hell, Satan and sometimes plain drunk fun and made badly timed, simplistic riffing with agressive vocals. (gotta love it). From that point, some bands emerged which were nowhere to be linked together except for their themes about Satan, anti christianity and fantasy tales regarding death, graveyards and stuff. Bands like 1981's Mercyful Fate (Heavy Metal), specially with their release "Melissa" (1983) and "Don't Break The Oath" (1984); 1983's Bathory, featuring the infamous Quorthon (Ace Borje Fosberg), most specially with releases like "Bathory" (1984), and "Under The Sign Of The Black Mark" (1987). And 1984's Celtic Frost, with their ever popular release "To Mega Therion" (1985) and their debut album "Morbid Tales" (1984). The style these bands took was nowhere near similar, but it was all classed as Heavy Metal. They were later discussed as Black Metal because of the lyrical content explained above. These bands gave influence to the creation of a new wave of Black Metal led by Mayhem (bandname based on Venom's "Mayhem With Mercy") and their 1987 E.P. "Deathcrush", in which they were markedly influenced by all the previous bands, taking the raw riffing from Celtic Frost and Venom, and the shrieking vocals and satanic messages of Bathory, to produce a minimalistic sound. The Black Metal style of the "second wave" got standarized as fast picking, insanely fast tremolo riffing and blasting drumwork with satanic lyrics delivered in various styles of shrieks and growls. Other Black Metal bands took a more symphonic stand on the process (Emperor and early Dimmu Borgir), to create a more accessible sound. There existed in the early 90's an almost mafia like group of Black Metal bands formed by members in Emperor, Mayhem, Darkthrone and Immortal (all founding fathers of the second wave), which comited crimes against christianity such as the most infamous of these actings , the church burnings in Norway (where the 2nd wave originated). It is also known that one of the members of this organization murdered an homosexual man. Some of these bands standed on their own views of Nietzscheism, Satanism and Nazism. Nicknames are also important on Black Metal, even if the trend was created jokingly by Venom, which on their album "Black Metal" holded the following lineup: Chronos - Dynosaur Destroyer Bass & Vocals (Bass and Vocals) Mantas - Chainsaw Guitar (Guitars) Abaddon - 123 Inter-City Express (Drums) The instrument name-calling was mainly adopted by Cradle Of Filth (arguably, a Gothic Metal band). Many bands have taken black metal as a crossover style, to create different and innovative music (Thrash + Black = Destroyer 666) (Black + Folk = Finntroll) (Industrial/Electronic + Black Metal = ...And Oceans) There is supposedly now a third wave of Black Metal, which holds a much more melodic style and have it's base in France, originated by Blut Aus Nord. And other bands like Ukraine's Nokturnal Mortum. Extras Wrote: -Pioneers of the First Wave: Venom, Mercyful Fate, Celtic Frost, Sodom (first album) -Pioneers of the Second Wave: Mayhem, Darkthrone, Immortal, Emperor, Burzum -Bands worth noticing: Blut Aus Nord, Graveland, Absu, Nokturnal Mortum, Naglfar -Sample: Click here to listen to a Black Metal sample -Sample Details: Immortal - "Blashyrkh (Mighty Ravendark)", from "Battles In The North" album

Viking Metal Wrote:

Viking metal evolved from Black Metal. A lot of people mistake Viking metal for any metal with lyrical themes about Viking or Fenno-Ugric mythology, Heathenism etc. However, this is a completely different musical style. Arrangements are usually more complex than the somewhat simple early black metal that originated in Norway in the early 1990s and Folk Metal is often mixed in, though it not a necessity by any means. The most important bands to the Viking Metal genre are Enslaved and midperiod Bathory and most noteworthy bands would be Moonsorrow, Wintersun and Ensiferum. Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Bathory -Bands worth noticing: Einherjer, Moonsorrow, Wintersun, Ensiferum, Enslaved -Sample: Click here to listen to a Viking Metal sample -Sample Details: Wintersun - "Winter Madness" from "Wintersun" album

Doom Metal Wrote:

Doom was originaly the first Metal subgenre to ever be put on a record, Black Sabbath self titled song (1970) is what I mean. Doom Metal features slow, evil riffs, lots of dark groove and bleak, sense of despair lyrics with depressive matters and deep vocals were what gave inspiration to bands like Candlemass and St. Vitus, the first full on Doom Metal bands. The general feeling of doom is dark, and depressive (existing a subgenre of it called Funeral), singing about death, lost loves, mourning, ruin and tragedy. There are mainly two ways that bands today play doom metal. Traditionaly in the vein of Candlemass and St. Vitus like the bands Solitude Aeternus and Doomsword, or bands which came out of the early 90's that combined some of the sense of despair and doom style with bits and pieces of Death metal vocals, such as My Dying Bride and Paradise Lost. What was named as Funeral Doom, is lead by Pantheist, which holds the newer (death vocals) style and reduces the pace and rythm of the songs even more. Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Black Sabbath, Candlemass, St. Vitus -Bands worth noticing: Paradise Lost, My Dying Bride, Doomsword, Morgion -Sample: Click here to listen to a Doom Metal sample -Sample Details: Candlemass - "Demon's Gate" from "Epicus Doomicus Metallicus" album

Goregrind / Grindcore Wrote:

Arguably (and with all right), Grindcore really belongs in the Punk realm, not really Metal. That's why we are going to concentrate on Goregrind, led specially by Carcass. This band took Death Metal and mixed it up with their Napalm Death influences for the album Scum (1987) to create Reek Of Putrefaction (1988), an album that remains as the creator of Goregrind and one of the most influential (and variated inside this limiting style), it features relentless speed drumming and guitars with gutural and gnarly vocals that usually don't even go along the lyrics which treat subjects like explicit rape, dismembered guts, blood, death, blood, blood, murder, blood and sex. Also worth noticing their Symphonies Of Sickness (1989) album. Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Napalm Death, Carcass, Repulsion -Bands worth noticing: Exhumed, Dying Fetus -Sample: Click here to listen to a Goregrind sample -Sample Details: Napalm Death - "Scum" from "Scum" album

Gothic Metal Wrote:

Mostly what is referred to as Gothic Metal these days is not really very gothic at all. The early 90s were a booming time for Goth Rock bands, and inevitably some of this began to work into the metal scene. Paradise Lost probably started it when they released their album "Gothic" in 1991 which used soprano vocals mixed with the death growls. By the mid to late 90s bands like The Gathering and The 3rd And The Mortal were experimenting extensively with the style. Gothic Metal, as it is meant today, is usually a mixing of Death Metal riffing with moody keyboards and female vocals, sometimes mixed with aggressive growling from a male vocalist, sometimes not. (The combination has been called �Beauty and the Beast vocals') The genre is very loosely defined, and many bands that are essentially atmospheric rock or Power Metal with female singers are labeled Gothic. "Extreme" Gothic Metal was also a genre that mostly starred Cradle Of Filth, this is the reverse usage of the Gothic forumla, it got deep shrieks and male vocals most of the time instead of female and female sopranos ocassionaly. Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Paradise Lost, Theater Of Tragedy, The 3rd And The Mortal -Bands worth noticing: After Forever, Tristania, Sirenia, Rain Fell Within, Moonspell -Sample: Click here to listen to a Gothic Metal sample -Sample Details: Theater Of Tragedy - "A Rose For The Dead" from "A Rose For The Dead" EP. The following genre is never used on its own, it doesn't have a pure style in which it can be played

Folk Metal Wrote:

Folk Metal is very difficult to class, since almost every band that uses Folk music in their songwriting are classed as Folk Metal. But the band styles don't really have a starting point, since there are Thrash Folk bands, Black Folk bands, and Power Folk bands (mostly). Though this all began with the Thrash Folk inclussion of Skyclad and their album "The Wayward Sons Of Mother Earth" (1991). Folk Metal bands tend to be described in many ways, there are many genres in which the bands fall, and Viking Metal is usualy founded along the way. Extras Wrote: -Pioneers: Skyclad -Bands worth noticing: Elvenking, In Extremo, Subway To Sally, Tyr, Ensiferum, Skyforger, Falkenbach, Finntroll, Vintersorg (first three albums) -Sample: Click here to listen to a Folk Metal sample -Sample Details: Finntroll - "Ursvamp" from "Nattfodd" album

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Okay, Surrrrre I'll Join Your Cult.

Why am i 'BANNED' from talking to my friends, huh? how the hel does that happen? im not the one yelling, the teacher is. So tell me how that works out. im gonna go to neopets.com and make a pet to make myself happy. And if u happen to land on this page check out my links.

Okay my mom is being somewhat nice, i guess i should thank her for being so lenient, so i did, specifically for her letting me use the computer. Why, oh why did i have to say 'yeah sure u can use my account' to my dad? I should have at least closed my email out. Oh, i signed up for rhapsody, for this 2 week trial thing, free music downlaod as much as possible, but it wouldent download so i have no music and groundation until im out of the house. Fuck Damn i am stupid. oh well.

boy, did i fuck up......

This weekend of all weekends, i got in trouble. my boyfriend had just gotten off of groundation, and my parents find out i used their credit card to create an account on rhapsody to get free music.
oh my god, we're they pissed. so now i'm grounded, but i dont care, ce la vie, and what is, is. oh yeah, check out this picture of me getting groped by ny step-niece.

what happened to my lunch?!?

I seriously dont want any more fights over who gets my 'sugar-like' lunch accessories. if i get a pudding cup, or a brownie-shaped-food-like item, ITS MINE! Okay, i have a 'group' of people i hang out with. There are three of us who maintain order, Traci, Keenan, and I, and the other have sub groups. There are about 50 people inside the group itself, each wandering about each day and others known to a sub group inside the group. Have i mentioned that i finally had sex yesterday? anyway if they take my stuff again im gonna smack Stephen. i hope my parents leave the house this weekend so my boyfriend and I can hang out with our friends in a parent free atmosphere. wish me luck! ^_^