I cant believe I let u read my blog. Why. Now I feel weird. I saw Danny Bonaduce down a whole bottle of cranberry juice and vodka. I hope u never become an alcoholic. I haven't smoked weed in so long because I have u and I don't want to screw it up. im in denial, and im afraid to admit it. I have to go to college. There is a possibility that I will have to move to another state. I don't like to think about it. Thinking it about it now makes me want to feel your arms around me, if just for reassurance. I think our relationship is all about the sex but its nice to have someone to listen to, and to listen to me. I wouldn't change anything about u because I think ur perfect for me. If I did change u, id make u maybe a little wilder and crazier, but I need the stability. I say it here on my blog because, I admit, im chickenshit about telling u or even bringing it up first. I love you. You make me feel so many things, not just happy but angry and sad and excited and alive. I would never feel the same again if you left me.