I keep having these suckass moments when I inevitably realize once again how meaning less my life would be if I had no one to love and love me in return. And thinking about how wonderful you are makes me feel like, maybe I shoudn't kill myself just yet. Maybe when its over, if its over, when the dreams of your love are memories and i can learn to live without you, i can look back and say, "wow, that was awesome". I know youre going to read this eventually, so what better way to tell you than in cyberspace, where itll be forever, i love you.