We are all on drugs (literally)

I tried to find that web site for codes to put music videos on the webpage but I cant remember the fucking url for the ‘codezone’. I want a mindless self indulgence vid on my page so’s I can access it whenever I want to. I’m pissed about Brian Holmes leaving for Pennsylvania or Philly or wherever his brother is taking him. Now I have to buddy up with this chick in my gym class and she’s incompetent sometimes and I cant talk about shit with her because her friends are always around us. (love) I don’t want to just sit around and wait for shit to happen to me when others cant decide what to do. (dance, dance) I have to go to Norfolk, Va this weekend because my dad’s bro got leave from the army for 4 months. I hate him. His brother was trigger happy last time he came home and I don’t want another confrontation with ‘the soldier boy’. Hes always like “I was in the war, I killed people, I’m traumatized” and I’m like “you’re still breathing (asshole)”.
I was abandoned by the red-head, I’m traumatized. (I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me). I cant wait till Christmas. Maybe everyone will be more relaxed then ‘cause my family is whacked out lately and I already got kicked out once and I don’t want to get kicked out again, (damnit!!!)

What am I doing?

Weezer - We Are All On Drugs
When your out with your friends
In your new Mercedes-Benz and you're
On drugs

And you show up late for school 'cause
You think your really cool when you're
On drugs

And you put on your headphones
And you step into the zone when you're
On drugs

But the world don't care
If you are or are not there 'cause you're
On drugs

Give it to me
We are all on drugs, yeah
Never getting enough, (Never get enough)
We are all on drugs, yeah
Give me some of that stuff

And you twitch in your seat
'Cause you wanna hit the street when you're
On drugs

And you cause such a fuss 'cause
There's no one you can trust when you're
On drugs

And the best of your days
Will all vanish in the haze when you're
On drugs
And you wish you could quit
'cause you're really sick of it but you're
On drugs

Give it to me
We are all on drugs, yeah
Never getting enough, (Never get enough)

I want to confiscate YOUR drugs
I don't think that I can get enough

Give it to me
We are all on drugs, yeah
Never getting enough
We are all on drugs, yeah
Give me some of that stuff
We are all on drugs (we are all on drugs)
[x4] (Wooooh)

Yay Internet (im gonna kill you, Eventually!!!!) *laughs maniacally*

Fall Out Boy- Dance, Dance

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse

Barely stuttered out

"A joke of a romantic" or stuck to my tongue

Weighed down with words too over-dramatic

Tonight it's "it can't get much worse" Vs. "no one should ever feel like.."

I'm two quarters and a heart down

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so I'll write them

So you need them just to get by

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance, this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

You always fold just before you're found out

Drink up its last call Last resort

But only the first mistake and I...

I'm two quarters and a heart down

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so I'll write them

So you need them just to get by

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine

You've been saving for his mattress, love

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance, this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine

You've been saving for his mattress (mattress, mattress)

I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)

Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)

Dance this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

i didnt tell you that yesterday i did try to kill myself, but the cars kept stopping. After the fourth time i just gave up. im sorry. i know im chickenshit.

I keep having these suckass moments when I inevitably realize once again how meaning less my life would be if I had no one to love and love me in return. And thinking about how wonderful you are makes me feel like, maybe I shoudn't kill myself just yet. Maybe when its over, if its over, when the dreams of your love are memories and i can learn to live without you, i can look back and say, "wow, that was awesome". I know youre going to read this eventually, so what better way to tell you than in cyberspace, where itll be forever, i love you.