I need money.

My mommy gave me money for lunch today and i already packed food.
i still want a goat..... but i wont get one yet.
i think im gonna have to call it quits with my biotechnology class. i cant take the workload. im not even awake in the morning, so how do they expect me to do any work? and the bus, my bus is either too late, or too early, or comes on a day when we wont even be doing anything. im so exasperated im on the edge of smacking someone with my text book. tell me what am i supposed to do. i dont especially like the class and i'd much rather be cracking equations in statistics class (which i wanted to do in the first place) and doing much better than i am in that class. i have a C and i hate doing badly. i may act nonchalant, but i have repressed emotion issues so thats what happens. Inside me theres a battle waging that, trust me, you dont want to be involved in. I love Adrien!

Maybe

i want to be oblivious to everything, naive to people and what they do, to themselves and to others. Interaction. Its a daily ritual. In public we weave in and out, around each other in an intricate dance of avoidance so we dont actually touch them. On our way to what ever it is that we do to occupy us and give our lives temporary meaning. Why must I be so callously aware and critical of others? I slept over at my friend Taylors house last night. Her stepmom made corn chowder for soup. tell me how does reading this impact your life? The momentary capture of your interest and attention is too brief to have meaning for you, So why am I even writing this?