SOS!

i hate this i absolutely fucking hate this cos every fucking thing i say to my parents winds up them saying shut up and fucking bullshit i know im right they're wrong and they dont listen to me they just ignore me and im trying to not be mean and im trying to be tolerant and its not working i want to bite theyre heads off i want to run them through with rusty knives and i want to drip carbolic acids on their wounds, until they scream and beg for me to forgive them. i wont be surprised if they abandon me. its a two week walk from here to maryland. i want badly to die, to run or to drift into oblivion in a moments time. i am suffering their anger unjustifiably. it fills me with great anathema to hear them talk to me as if i am a child. adrien, i miss you too much. i need you so badly.

slept from 430 to 528

too nauseous to actually sit still, i almost barfed when i sat up straight, and my dad was yelling at me for stuff i cant remember now but i got to tell you. north carolina smells a whole lot cleaner than rockville, even if it is uglier.

i miss the sound of your voice wayyy to much and i'll probably wind up being forced to play 'go fish' in the car with my brother or mother or even, please jesus oh no not my dad!!!! but i guess im just trying my hardest not to barf like some other poor guy (proof is on the back seat, yuch!) in this rental van that is too small for me to spread out all the way. its too cramped, and i hate it but i havent complained, except for once when father was scolding me for rocking back & forth trying NOT TO PUKE!!!

but heck ive decided to adopt a fetus instead of mourn my loss of maryland...




I adopted a cute lil' emo fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

i can believe this is happening!

Florida is like jail. the dirty streets, the gaudy kids, and the decrepit old people. it smells like hormones and death. i h8 it. H8!

no i detest it. i enjoy clear blue waters. the water is murky brown and lukewarm, like vomit from a baby or a drunkard.
i think i will bring some weed and get high there, just so i can bear it. ill be high every day.
it will be less than okay. i hate it. but my dad said i can call you and taylor, and im going to try and call you damon but i have to find ur number. im going to miss rockville so much.