Why am I not allowed to care?

'ooo yea it was wounderful, i'm ok with no taylor, as u wish darling, lol but remember those hands of urs, i'll have to tigh'em up hm hm love u '

Do you really mean it when you say 'love u'?!?
How do I know that you mean that? Ask you? You could be lying to me. How is it that someone incapable of emotions cares about me? Is that possible? The only way I know you care about me is that you still seek me out at school and hang with me.
Do you want me to stop caring, Adrien? That means that I am not allowed to love you, Adrien. I cant just stop loving you, Adrien. Im not apathetic to every one around me like you are, Adrien.
I want you in every imaginable way, Adrien. I still want you, right now, Adrien.
Just having you touch me turns me on. Im a slave for you. I'll do anything for you, Not almost anything, I will do whatever you want, whatever you need, whatever you have to have, anything.
Fuck you, and your 'almost anything'. Why can't you just comply?
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Shades of blue, Adrien, you're turning me shades of blue. I greatly dislike being sad. I can't not talk to you, 'cause I love you. Thats why when I said I wasn't going to talk to you, I still did. I can't stay angry for long. Its a wasted emotion.

I'm sorry if I made you angry.
I'll try to be a more heartless person.