Dear Diary: A Post About Anonimity And Unity.

I switched from being on Myspace to writing on here for a while. I just feel like maybe on here people might see my pleas for help. I know I'm not social, I know I'm avoidant, I know I judge others to critically, but I only do so in my own perverted quest for perfection. Why can't anyone understand that I just don't like mistakes? I can't stand when things are done in a nonsensical manner. You don't put paper on fire to stop a leaky sink. I posted something on OKCupid for my About Me section.


"I should admit though, that I'm dominant in the strangest way. I'll do things for people, like getting things for them, helping them, telling them what to do. I can't explain it very well at the moment, I'll think it through. But I can tell you I do things for people so I know that it gets done correctly.

Someone is in my house, says they're hungry and heads for my kitchen. I don't want them to touch anything or ruin my groove for that room so I say, I'll make you something.

I'm not doing it to be nice, I'm doing it so they can't fuck it up."

Well, I guess I can safely assume that I can never get the control I really want, ever. I was reading this story on GaggedUtopia and oh my god I love it, the ending is just what I want from a slave. I want to be the provider, the one totally in control, but who has the complete trust and devotion of another. I think if I look hard enough and train myself well enough I may be able to attain my perfect slave. If only.

I like the internet for it providing one an ability to be faceless. The internet provides you with the ability to decide if you do or do not want to be publicly recognizable.
Do I believe in monogamy? I'm not sure if I do completely believe I myself can be completely and wholly monogamous, leaving myself only to one other person. I don't exactly frequent the Chan boards, but I still keep tabs every so often. I'd like to think of myself as one of the /b/rethren, but I don't exactly condone everything they do. To each their own, but the /b/ is ful of hipocracy. We have hardcore devotees complaining about how sick and twisted all the shit is on the boards. Like this one inane post about anonymous and it's 'lazy ass' complaining about Scientology.


I swear, for smart people, /b/, you're just a bunch of fucking sheep.

CONSPIRACYFAG? Really? REALLY? You're seriously going to putter on ignoring and mocking the fact that you're being dumbed down, categorized and sorted like products in an assembly line? Used for just another "human resource"? Is the reason you denounce these whistle-blowing posters that you think it's "MATURE" to say "Hey, that's life, deal with it hippy!"? Are you so jaded and apathetic that your life and the lives of your brothers and sisters don't even matter anymore? Are you that disillusioned that you need to justify your seemingly inconsequential life by shooting down these people who desperately try to tell you that you're being taken for a fool?
Why give up and say that you can't change anything when you didn't even fucking try? Are you that far gone? You probably never stood up for anything meaningful in your entire life. Why not start now? How about you stop trying to convince yourselves not to believe bare-faced facts because it could lump you in with "hippies" or "crazies" or "bohemians" or "tin foil hat wearers." Why are you so goddamned afraid?

Yes this is sensationalist and emotionally charged. Why? Because you sleepers need to wake the fuck up! Stop trying to outsmart eachother with pretentious intellectual circle-jerking and do something about this obvious travesty occurring worldwide. Instead of protesting an innocuous and unpopular cult (Scientology), protest and fight for something meaningful and worthwhile! Put the title of Anonymous to the test, instead of embarrassing the shit out of it in front of various cult headquarters!

tl;dr Do something... ANYTHING. Don't just sit on your collective asses and waste away. You have so much goddamn potential, each and every one of you perverted, insane fuckers. I have faith in you and you should too.

The response to this post?

Seriously, fuck off and die.

We've read that post. It's not original. It's not funny. It's not witty. It's pig shit. And you're a fucktard for posting it yet again.

It's the fucking stupidity that smart ass on smart ass, and they can only use profanity to respond and speak.
There was a post on the /b/ board about a website called I've Screwed Up. Here is my submission :
I confess I am gay, smoke crack, rape, steal and lie. I confess that in your eyes this is wrong. In your eyes and my eyes I can agree that smoking crack is hurtful, body soul and mind. In your eyes and my eyes I can agree that raping others is rapacious, body soul and mind. In your eyes and my eyes I can agree that stealing is avaricious. In your eyes and my eyes I can agree that lying is deceitful. In your eyes and my eyes I cannot agree that being gay is a sin. If one were to look up synonyms for 'gay' or 'homosexual' the most negative synonym available would be 'queer'. A synonym for 'queer' is strange. Being gay is strange, and is in no way wrong, bad, mean, or hurtful to anyone. I can agree in your eyes and in my eyes that being gay is joyous, for that is a true synonym of gaity.

I know that it is largely probable that my post will not be put up, but maybe someone will read it, think it smart and witty, and post it else where.