SOS!

i hate this i absolutely fucking hate this cos every fucking thing i say to my parents winds up them saying shut up and fucking bullshit i know im right they're wrong and they dont listen to me they just ignore me and im trying to not be mean and im trying to be tolerant and its not working i want to bite theyre heads off i want to run them through with rusty knives and i want to drip carbolic acids on their wounds, until they scream and beg for me to forgive them. i wont be surprised if they abandon me. its a two week walk from here to maryland. i want badly to die, to run or to drift into oblivion in a moments time. i am suffering their anger unjustifiably. it fills me with great anathema to hear them talk to me as if i am a child. adrien, i miss you too much. i need you so badly.